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We always try to deny reality. Why when it so clear and obvious we try to see the opposite and believe it?!!
We always blame life, when we should blame ourselves. We are only to be blamed of all the failure we go through… because we saw it and ignored it. We did not believe in the truth in front of our eyes.
I always look at my living room, and always see it perfect. It is the furniture I always dreamed of. The same decoration I had in mind for years. When I moved to this house I was happy and excited to the extent I would give up anything in life to live in it as soon as I can. I waited for a long time to call it “Home”. I spent hours in decorating this specific room. I chose the colours, furniture and accessories patiently, and moved the sofas, coffee tables and rugs several time to see what will look better and in which place… It took me days and nights sitting in my lovely living room enjoying the view from each window in it… Trying each sofa and its view… I have three views in my living room. One is opposite to the sea, the other view is on my small yard which is full of flowers, and the last window opens on an open area where you think you are looking at the infinity… the end of the earth… where a huge carpet of green grass is wrapping the whole view.
Every body envied me for the location, and the good taste I added in my home. And I always saw that they were right in their feelings. It really deserved to be envied.
Usually when I have guests at home, I feel like I am a queen in my palace. Eyes were always looking on every corner of my home. I knew there where lots of reasons to admire this lovely place I have.
Till one day, I arrived home from work; I was shocked to see that my home is surrounded by a golden frame. A very fancy frame which made this house looks so beautiful. I never saw it before… I kept standing there for few minutes, which seemed like long boring hours. I felt that all the beauty in my home was because of this expensive frame. I was afraid to go inside and discover that everything inside there was ordinary.
I stepped inside my home, closed the door behind me, and sat on the floor where I was standing. Everything was pale, lifeless and boring. There is nothing inside had its same taste and smell. Actually, it never had any taste or smell. The house was only few walls with some objects to complete the picture.
No one knew that there was no life in all these things inside the house. Objects do not breathe or feel. They are there only to complete a picture we either dreamed of or just wanted it because it is a need.
The truth is painful sometimes, especially when you really believe it.
What can I do to make it like I used to see it? I can keep the frame and let it be as it is, for all people who love to visit me to enjoy its magic, or I can remove the frame and loose its charm.
Which of these options would satisfy me personally? I need my inner peace and at the same time can not ignore the lovely feeling of being proud to have this home when people are around. Both are needs and can not afford to loose one of them. Human beings are selfish, we want everything.
But after knowing and believing the truth I do not think I can enjoy anything again. I should make deal with myself and have to loose one of the options.
If you were me, what would you choose?
We always blame life, when we should blame ourselves. We are only to be blamed of all the failure we go through… because we saw it and ignored it. We did not believe in the truth in front of our eyes.
I always look at my living room, and always see it perfect. It is the furniture I always dreamed of. The same decoration I had in mind for years. When I moved to this house I was happy and excited to the extent I would give up anything in life to live in it as soon as I can. I waited for a long time to call it “Home”. I spent hours in decorating this specific room. I chose the colours, furniture and accessories patiently, and moved the sofas, coffee tables and rugs several time to see what will look better and in which place… It took me days and nights sitting in my lovely living room enjoying the view from each window in it… Trying each sofa and its view… I have three views in my living room. One is opposite to the sea, the other view is on my small yard which is full of flowers, and the last window opens on an open area where you think you are looking at the infinity… the end of the earth… where a huge carpet of green grass is wrapping the whole view.
Every body envied me for the location, and the good taste I added in my home. And I always saw that they were right in their feelings. It really deserved to be envied.
Usually when I have guests at home, I feel like I am a queen in my palace. Eyes were always looking on every corner of my home. I knew there where lots of reasons to admire this lovely place I have.
Till one day, I arrived home from work; I was shocked to see that my home is surrounded by a golden frame. A very fancy frame which made this house looks so beautiful. I never saw it before… I kept standing there for few minutes, which seemed like long boring hours. I felt that all the beauty in my home was because of this expensive frame. I was afraid to go inside and discover that everything inside there was ordinary.
I stepped inside my home, closed the door behind me, and sat on the floor where I was standing. Everything was pale, lifeless and boring. There is nothing inside had its same taste and smell. Actually, it never had any taste or smell. The house was only few walls with some objects to complete the picture.
No one knew that there was no life in all these things inside the house. Objects do not breathe or feel. They are there only to complete a picture we either dreamed of or just wanted it because it is a need.
The truth is painful sometimes, especially when you really believe it.
What can I do to make it like I used to see it? I can keep the frame and let it be as it is, for all people who love to visit me to enjoy its magic, or I can remove the frame and loose its charm.
Which of these options would satisfy me personally? I need my inner peace and at the same time can not ignore the lovely feeling of being proud to have this home when people are around. Both are needs and can not afford to loose one of them. Human beings are selfish, we want everything.
But after knowing and believing the truth I do not think I can enjoy anything again. I should make deal with myself and have to loose one of the options.
If you were me, what would you choose?
posted by gOt The sIGn?!! @ 3:45 AM
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