Lost between two worlds
What are the factors that you build up on it a satisfied and secured life?!! Studies say that……….
I have been trying to write one sentence for two hours… I should submit this article by tomorrow, but till now I didn’t write a word…
What's wrong?! All what I am focusing on is an answer to it... a personal answer!! I don’t need to think of an answer now; I need an article for the magazine.
What a question which made me stop and think for all this time?!! Why I can't give myself a quick complete answer and continue writing?!!
I will have a break and try again.
I took a cigarette and step out of my front door. The wind outside is chilly, but I need some fresh air. I can see the lights of some neighbours around my place. If I passed by some of them to ask them this question, will they be confused and stressed like me?!! Or they will just throw some silly words like: love, trust, friendship, kids and feeling secure are the magic factors which make life pink in colour?
But, why I think that these words are silly?!! Aren't they the basics of having a wonderful life?!! Still I didn’t feel the warmth in my heart that tells me –usually- I know the answer. I still feel I am not myself at this point. I am confused and worried about it. I can't skip it and continue writing till I know these factors.
I always thought that I was satisfied and secured in my life. I felt that no one in this world is living like me, and if there is, they are just lucky as I was. If I was, then why I can't use my experience in writing this article?!!!
Why I feel love, trust, friendship, kids and feeling secure are not the most important factors of satisfaction? Aren't these the important subjects of life that all people scarify everything to have them? Well, I used to think so, but not anymore…
At this point, I feel that there is something else, when you get it, you will feel the satisfaction.
I want to go back to the writing again, and try to concentrate more on the subject itself rather than on myself…
"What one might want to feel that he reached the limit of wanting anything?" I thought… let me put it in another words…"When do u consider yourself satisfied?" or "What is self-satisfaction?"
SELF… I feel that I am getting near… my heart bounced when the word "self" passed my mind…
What does "SELF" means? Or "what is the self?" Or "what ..not what…"
"Why when we think of satisfaction we relate it to other people and things in life?" I think this is the right question… "Self is self" that means one person only.. It is not about you and your husband/boyfriend, it is not about you and your job, it is not about you and your kids…it is about you and YOURself …
I feel a little bit comfortable than before… I think I am on the right path of finding the answer…
Now I need to think about myself a bit to see if I can find an answer to my satisfaction…
I should ask myself several questions, like:
What target I am running toward in my personal/professional life? Let me leave my profession life aside now, and concentrate on my personal one.
I want to concentrate on what I am giving not on what I am receiving… … … Minutes are passing like turtle steps and I am still having a lot in mind.
It took me more than one hour thinking of all the things I gave with all my heart to people I love and care about… this is not the self-satisfaction… I need to think about what I am receiving from life not from "people" …
Life gave me a lot. I can make a list from it, but did life give me what I "wanted" or just gave me what was on offer at the time?!
Now I need to think of what I received from myself!!! What have I done to make sure I will be happy, secured and satisfied? Did I give myself the priority in everything? Or there were always people who interrupt my path to give them my attention?
I am going back into depression; I don’t feel I can have a complete answer to this question. It is too complicated for me and I guess it will make my life miserable.
Here you go, another confusing question… "Are what I thought will make me satisfied 3 years ago are the same which will make me NOW?!!!" or things change as we get older, wiser, and more mature? Are what we need from life should be changeable or time and circumstances will not affect it?
I need someone to help me in article… I need people to discuss and argue about this… some one should give me more questions to know where I am … in which world I live, world of "satisfaction" or world of "I thought it was satisfaction"
I think I will transfer this article into a questionnaire and let me see what results I wil get from my readers…
posted by gOt The sIGn?!! @ 1:08 PM
7 Comments:
life as much it is simple,it is complicted too. we never know ourselves and the sense of satisfaction unless we are part of ateam, outside of self circle.
there is always an endless need of giving so much exceeds our routine life which we need to think about it seriously to make us more worthy and satisified. we do our best to find this quest starting by making a question mark ?
keep dear looking in ways to reach the journey of giving, it takes a while but is never more than searching deep down in the soul,body and mind
may allah bless you
blue sky
Albert Einstein Said : "The most incomprehensible thing about the world is that it is at all comprehensible."
To me the life is so simple to the limit that i don't know how to descripe it , but i belive that there is a reason for everything, so if you want to understand how simple the life is just answer these three questions:
Why we was created?
Where do we go after we die??
What is the purpose of this life???
i think that answering these question will help!!!
God Bless Us All
we can't see life simple as some think.. it is sometimes simple & some other time complicated..
simple words can't describe how many times we "people" reach a dead end & lose our trust in everything surround...
God is always beside us, helping us to find answers to all our questions... but the problem if we have the time to stop & think..
the whole life is created for one reason..which is "el 3ibadeh" but this "3ibadeh" is not only in prayers etc.. it is in learning.. & in my opinion learning is from the most important factors which leads us to Faith..
learning what is life is about & what we should come out from it is a one life experience which will be a richfull thing after dead if it was lived for a reason, target and faith...
god bless u all
thank u for ur comments which is helping all people who reads my blogs...
I wrote this in the new group u made :)
Lost between two worlds!! Confused tittle !! and let me say..
what r u thinking about are normal thougths, and we always running toward our satisfaction, and to this point, we will never reach the perfect level..
to be satisfied or happy, we have to receive and give,, nothing goes with receiving only,, but the question that comes now,, r we receiving as much as we r giving.. this is the point, because any unbalanced process will affect our feeling in satisfaction.
the whole process is relatively measured between ppl, and what makes u satisfied may not to other ppl !! rigth ?? and what makes u satisfied now, may not tomorrow,, so it is changeable and sometimes it will be a mystery that needs some effort to be revealed, and of course no one but "self" will reveal it.
what we need is know what our souls and minds need, it is a combination of two things, ( soul & mind ), u have to satisfy each of them.
not being only loved or surrounded by our friends all what we need,, we have to feel that also we can live alone,, not only being busy with work is the solution, also we need to rest our minds.. u c,, it is going like that,, balancing everything.... but believe me, think in it as simple as u can,, am not saying to leave it for days, or to let it works alone,, no,, u have to think in it, but not as much as u r doing,, beacuse the more we grow ,the more we need,, o la7gi kannik betla7gi :) its life, that what am saying all the time :).......
do u know,, be close to God, this is the secret,, God will help us always to find our right paths..believe in that and God will never let u stay confused,,, and remember always as we say " Reda al nas 3'ayaton la todrak" also: "Reda al nafs 3'ayaton la todrak" ....... God bless u
Dara Hijazi
I have read the post and all the comments, to be fair I sensed that the comments don’t address the question you made at the first place...What the "What are the factors that you build up on it a satisfied and secured life?!!"
Well the answer have 2 routes, the 1st is personal for each one, and 2nd is general answer that applies to every human being.
Lets start with my self, what is the when I will feel the ultimate satisfaction?
Honestly maybe I thought about that long years ago, but not in the way you compile your question, I believed and still believing that the happiness is in living in the perfect community, a community of utopia....where there is justice and every body are equal and living in peace. Satisfaction for me not only coming from living there but from building the community and made huge scarifies in the long hard way to achieving that goal.
What comes next in my satisfaction list? I'm sure it will be to be with my love as husband and wife, making a small family that live in harmony, warmth, and mutual love.
That’s all I want from this life, I don't care about money or position. Not to forget the basic cause of me to be a good slave for Allah that, obey him and carry out his well in his land.
That all was me, but what about others...the rest of us? I think we all some times mistakenly make confuse between the target and the way, for example most of us like to have money....and forgets that money is only the mean....and the goal is what money is achieving. So that we lost the sense of direction and started to think that the way is actually is the goal....some times that way disguised in very tricky way, like to have a goal to marry The One......maybe it’s just a cover for the need of settle down and have a family......or some thing like that.
I'm thinking of some thing right now, lets just re-compile the question....what things that if you lost you will feel that every thing in you life is going down?
Maybe if any of us gathered her/his answer he will reach to the most basic and most important bases in her/his life that every thing aside of it just can be neglected.
Do you know......your posts just make us wonders about very basic questions that we stopped thinking about it.....but it’s really relieving and more human to stop again and ask our self’s the old questions?
Allah be with you
Mohammad Juma
u remind me of this wisdom:
Do not look back and say,
"This is Me" or look forward and ask,
"What will I become?"
Simply open your eyes and look about:)
so we r,everything else we just do.
u remind me of this wisdom:
Do not look back and say,
"This is Me" or look forward and ask,
"What will I become?"
Simply open your eyes and look about.
so WE R,EVERYTHING ELSE WE JUST DO.
suha jbara
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