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We always try to deny reality. Why when it so clear and obvious we try to see the opposite and believe it?!!
We always blame life, when we should blame ourselves. We are only to be blamed of all the failure we go through… because we saw it and ignored it. We did not believe in the truth in front of our eyes.
I always look at my living room, and always see it perfect. It is the furniture I always dreamed of. The same decoration I had in mind for years. When I moved to this house I was happy and excited to the extent I would give up anything in life to live in it as soon as I can. I waited for a long time to call it “Home”. I spent hours in decorating this specific room. I chose the colours, furniture and accessories patiently, and moved the sofas, coffee tables and rugs several time to see what will look better and in which place… It took me days and nights sitting in my lovely living room enjoying the view from each window in it… Trying each sofa and its view… I have three views in my living room. One is opposite to the sea, the other view is on my small yard which is full of flowers, and the last window opens on an open area where you think you are looking at the infinity… the end of the earth… where a huge carpet of green grass is wrapping the whole view.
Every body envied me for the location, and the good taste I added in my home. And I always saw that they were right in their feelings. It really deserved to be envied.
Usually when I have guests at home, I feel like I am a queen in my palace. Eyes were always looking on every corner of my home. I knew there where lots of reasons to admire this lovely place I have.
Till one day, I arrived home from work; I was shocked to see that my home is surrounded by a golden frame. A very fancy frame which made this house looks so beautiful. I never saw it before… I kept standing there for few minutes, which seemed like long boring hours. I felt that all the beauty in my home was because of this expensive frame. I was afraid to go inside and discover that everything inside there was ordinary.
I stepped inside my home, closed the door behind me, and sat on the floor where I was standing. Everything was pale, lifeless and boring. There is nothing inside had its same taste and smell. Actually, it never had any taste or smell. The house was only few walls with some objects to complete the picture.
No one knew that there was no life in all these things inside the house. Objects do not breathe or feel. They are there only to complete a picture we either dreamed of or just wanted it because it is a need.
The truth is painful sometimes, especially when you really believe it.
What can I do to make it like I used to see it? I can keep the frame and let it be as it is, for all people who love to visit me to enjoy its magic, or I can remove the frame and loose its charm.
Which of these options would satisfy me personally? I need my inner peace and at the same time can not ignore the lovely feeling of being proud to have this home when people are around. Both are needs and can not afford to loose one of them. Human beings are selfish, we want everything.
But after knowing and believing the truth I do not think I can enjoy anything again. I should make deal with myself and have to loose one of the options.
If you were me, what would you choose?
We always blame life, when we should blame ourselves. We are only to be blamed of all the failure we go through… because we saw it and ignored it. We did not believe in the truth in front of our eyes.
I always look at my living room, and always see it perfect. It is the furniture I always dreamed of. The same decoration I had in mind for years. When I moved to this house I was happy and excited to the extent I would give up anything in life to live in it as soon as I can. I waited for a long time to call it “Home”. I spent hours in decorating this specific room. I chose the colours, furniture and accessories patiently, and moved the sofas, coffee tables and rugs several time to see what will look better and in which place… It took me days and nights sitting in my lovely living room enjoying the view from each window in it… Trying each sofa and its view… I have three views in my living room. One is opposite to the sea, the other view is on my small yard which is full of flowers, and the last window opens on an open area where you think you are looking at the infinity… the end of the earth… where a huge carpet of green grass is wrapping the whole view.
Every body envied me for the location, and the good taste I added in my home. And I always saw that they were right in their feelings. It really deserved to be envied.
Usually when I have guests at home, I feel like I am a queen in my palace. Eyes were always looking on every corner of my home. I knew there where lots of reasons to admire this lovely place I have.
Till one day, I arrived home from work; I was shocked to see that my home is surrounded by a golden frame. A very fancy frame which made this house looks so beautiful. I never saw it before… I kept standing there for few minutes, which seemed like long boring hours. I felt that all the beauty in my home was because of this expensive frame. I was afraid to go inside and discover that everything inside there was ordinary.
I stepped inside my home, closed the door behind me, and sat on the floor where I was standing. Everything was pale, lifeless and boring. There is nothing inside had its same taste and smell. Actually, it never had any taste or smell. The house was only few walls with some objects to complete the picture.
No one knew that there was no life in all these things inside the house. Objects do not breathe or feel. They are there only to complete a picture we either dreamed of or just wanted it because it is a need.
The truth is painful sometimes, especially when you really believe it.
What can I do to make it like I used to see it? I can keep the frame and let it be as it is, for all people who love to visit me to enjoy its magic, or I can remove the frame and loose its charm.
Which of these options would satisfy me personally? I need my inner peace and at the same time can not ignore the lovely feeling of being proud to have this home when people are around. Both are needs and can not afford to loose one of them. Human beings are selfish, we want everything.
But after knowing and believing the truth I do not think I can enjoy anything again. I should make deal with myself and have to loose one of the options.
If you were me, what would you choose?
posted by gOt The sIGn?!! @ 3:45 AM
5 Comments:
i was reading the other day that "friends and even passionate love are not a woman's real life unless there is time alone in which to explore and discover what is happening or has happened. Social life is nourishing but also maddening, fulfilling but also depleting, unless she can balance it with time alone again to contact with her "deep self". Both solitude and a social life are essential for the quality of depth to her real life."
Just thought this relates in some way to the options you layed out there.
Manal
it is an enlightning one...when i read "HOME"... I mapped it to me as a person - I think this is the purpose the stroy is seeking - if you look to yourself, you might have the best partner ever, you are driving the best car, you have the best job, you have the best home...which make people envy you that is the "GOLDEN FENCE" but when you set by yourself and reflect on all of this...you will find there is no life inside you...you are not happy... you do not laugh from your heart...you are worried if i loose the"FENCE" would it be better or worse...no soul in your life just routine...a killing routine...sometimes you feel you want to break the FENCE for the sake of change for the sake of finding your SOUL... modifying or decorating the "FENCE" is not the SOLUTION...if you do not have the inner peace alive inside you...start now to explore how to restore your LIFE!!!
Fadi
yes Fadi.. u got the point of the story.. either Fence or Frame .. both are objects which can surround us and give us a feeling of secure.. i think living behind this frame for a long time will avoid u to know ur true u.. we should break it.. live outside it.. then u can build another fence or Frame around u.. btw, u build it unconsiously..
But you said...its the home of your dream......is it? or its the home that you think the dream of every body else.....so by that they will see in what you accomplish their dreams that they fail to do.
And by that your only perpose is to be a mirror for other to see their falls..........and if we remove "THEM" as we move a way from the mirror you will lose every single perpouse in your life.
You lost years of your life just to show the other how much they are pathetic.....but at the end of the day.........you are the pathetic desperate one, because in fact you didn't do a signle thing for your self... you simply wasting your life.
"Home" is nice............but to some extend reveal how much stupid and pale is our lifes.
Mohammad Juma
hey mohd..sanx for ur comment.. but let me give u a hint to understand my blogs.. go beyond the words..
cheers..
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